These last two days have had me a little more stressed and worried than usual, due to something that I don't really want to go into detail about. I know that kinda makes it sound like it's some huge deal or something, and in a way, it kinda is a big deal, but it's also not. It's hard for me to really say, because I get stressed and worried about even the littlest things. I'm just a big worrywart, especially when it comes to dealing with people. Because I'm also not good at dealing with people too. And confronting someone is like, terrifying...
But, to try and put those things aside, and just take my mind off things, I started working on a very short comic with my cat-girl Emmie. It's nothing special. It's just two panels and then a little extra bit of dialogue. It's small, but it's something. And even though I started working on the comic to help take my mind off the stress, the comic itself has been stressful, and it also has me nervous too, but it's a good kinda stress and nervousness.
Even though I've only just started with Estelle's comics, and now also Emmie's, I'm having a lot of fun with them. And they really mean a lot to me. Because I kinda feel like I have a purpose with them. And not just them, but all the art I make. Before I started making my art, I had no real goal, or ambition, or any future plans. I just went along with whatever I felt was expected of me.
But now I feel like have a goal. I have something that I want to do. I want to make my art, and make my comics, and share the stories of my characters with everyone. I want to make a series of comics, and get them published, to share them with even more people. I know that goal is still a long way off, and I've still got a lot to learn, and it won't be easy. And I know that there are people far more talented than I am, who are also still trying to reach similar goals, but I'm still going to try.
But as I said before, I've only just started the comics. But I'm super excited to make more. I really, really, really want to make more, and I want to share the stories with you all. And I just want to thank all you as well. Because it's thanks to all you, and your support, that I'm even here, making this art. It's thanks to all of you that I've had the strength to get this far, and the strength to keep on going further. It's thanks to all of you, that I feel like I have a purpose. So again, to all of you, thank you so much.
And sorry for this kinda random ranty sorta thing. Just feeling a little emotional tonight, and wanted to just write my thoughts out, instead of bottling this stuff up, like I usually do.